Fucking MOOD

People keep trying to break who you are.

They don't do it intentionally but they act as if who they are is somehow better.

It's mostly ego tripping.

It's usually not on purpose or even intentional.

I just wish that I could vibe in a chat room without having the possibility of my sacred ground being infringed.

Like, you can be you, that's fine? Just leave my self alone. . . ?!

... Like, read the room maybe? You're not the only person there??

But maybe it is me. Like. Maybe I shouldn't be bothered... but I am.

I'm just sick of this. going places and being myself and feeling so god damn stepped on. My chat comment isn't your step ladder to yours. Stop over-riding me!! I wish. I dream. But it'll never happen.

I need to get over the needs maybe? It's so annoying / frustrating.

Learning to defend myself from what hurts me but without lending too far in the direction of hurting others or lashing out. And still not sacrifice the self-defense.

This shit is so hard for me...